Infinite ends

Infinite ends, goodbyes, betrayal

Infinite pain, sadness, lonesomeness

I glance back with rosy romantic vision

At the years that passed me by

Beneath the humid Mumbai sky

I know not the source of this rhyme

It’s no song, it’s no mime

It’s a weary, sad glance back at all I didn’t see

Another regret within breaks free

A grim glance at all I have passed through

A sad look at my foolishness all through

And I pass again into the void

Another chaotic robot, droid

Something cuts me apart from its shadow-hands again

It’s my old alter-ego, my silence

My child, inner violence

And I scream into the blank space again

And no one can listen from the emptiness

Maybe if I died, maybe if I cried

It would hurt a little less

I loved a face, I hated disgrace

I hate the bullshit, the fake

I put my sense at stake

And bit into the poisoned cake

Swirling, snivelling, soft-no-longer

The harsh lines etched in dark silence draw into light

She holds my hand again, the lonely god

The game of desires

A burning, gently burning rod.